havent blogged in so long, but i havent stopped operation starvation, i fell for abit going back up to 132, then i picked myself back up and now im at 125:) pretty happy about that, trying to eat under 500 cals a day, it goes beyond well somedays and some days it dont haha, i can notice my legs getting skinnier,bringing on that gap:) and my love handles shrinking.
OH and when i purchase a ring, imma get my boy to peirce my belly button:) alsooo i have the ab circle pro for xmas! hello soon to be sexy belly ;) hahaha well anyways.
all i had today so far was a peice of toast with nutilla spread over it, nom nom. andd soon ill be eat either salad or a banana. then thatll be it for today :) xx
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
love this song.
id do anythingg to look like these girls.
damn?
day 7 - 126 pounds..
yogurt- 35 cals
half a bowl of salad ( no cheese, no dressing)
a fish cake( thats potatoes and fish mixed together haha) half a bowl.
done some ab workouts aswellll.
i know all that didnt add up to 500 cals, but i felt like shit after i ate it, regret it so much.
and im now a pound over yesterdays weight.. fuck.
oh well, i wont eat so much tomorrow.
im so happy i havent binged since i started this time.
looking at some thinspo every few hours in helping me alot.
love it <3!
x
yogurt- 35 cals
half a bowl of salad ( no cheese, no dressing)
a fish cake( thats potatoes and fish mixed together haha) half a bowl.
done some ab workouts aswellll.
i know all that didnt add up to 500 cals, but i felt like shit after i ate it, regret it so much.
and im now a pound over yesterdays weight.. fuck.
oh well, i wont eat so much tomorrow.
im so happy i havent binged since i started this time.
looking at some thinspo every few hours in helping me alot.
love it <3!
x
Sunday, November 27, 2011
ahhh i didnt have time to post yesterday !:(
so yesterday being day 5 - 127 pounds
6 inch sub from subway
a tin of soup
2 coffee
coke zero
yogurt
day 6 - 125 pounds
yogurt- 35 cals
then supper i had carrot, noodle stuff, chicken . . but each thing was smaller than my palm.
a bite of a wunderbar!
done some ab workouts before bed:)
i want the ab circle pro for christmas !
so yesterday being day 5 - 127 pounds
6 inch sub from subway
a tin of soup
2 coffee
coke zero
yogurt
day 6 - 125 pounds
yogurt- 35 cals
then supper i had carrot, noodle stuff, chicken . . but each thing was smaller than my palm.
a bite of a wunderbar!
done some ab workouts before bed:)
i want the ab circle pro for christmas !
Friday, November 25, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
:)
day 3: 130 pounds
a yogurt with 2 strawberrys, 2 grapes = 47 cals
a cracker = 7 cals
2 chickenlegs (oven) with few tablespoons of white rice.
not badd !
ran up and down stairs alot of times, walked up the road, done a few ab workouts
a yogurt with 2 strawberrys, 2 grapes = 47 cals
a cracker = 7 cals
2 chickenlegs (oven) with few tablespoons of white rice.
not badd !
ran up and down stairs alot of times, walked up the road, done a few ab workouts
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
hello..AGIAN
fuccck i failed big time, the past few weeks ive compleatly just let myself go, go right back up to 133. i gained 4 pounds. i seriously neeeed to loose weight, i feel discusting every time i look at my body in the mirror.
i want to be able to:
-wear shorts without seeing the fat buldge out below them.
-wear tight jeans without having my sides hangout over the top.
-wear a tanktop and not see the fat upperarms and backfat.
-sit down and not have to worry about my legs looking fat or having a belly.
-pinch my skin and not feel the cellulite .
-run around in underwear and bra and not jiggle.
-not look at myself as a fat piece of shit..
starting agian..
day 1 : 133 pounds
little cup of chocolate milk
half bowl of this moose soup
..
wiifitplus - burned 170 calories.
i want to be able to:
-wear shorts without seeing the fat buldge out below them.
-wear tight jeans without having my sides hangout over the top.
-wear a tanktop and not see the fat upperarms and backfat.
-sit down and not have to worry about my legs looking fat or having a belly.
-pinch my skin and not feel the cellulite .
-run around in underwear and bra and not jiggle.
-not look at myself as a fat piece of shit..
starting agian..
day 1 : 133 pounds
little cup of chocolate milk
half bowl of this moose soup
..
wiifitplus - burned 170 calories.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
..
day 9: 129 pounds.... still.
little thing of apple juice- 50 cals
mc shits chicken snack wrap- 90 cals
small bowl of spaghetti.
few smarties.
everytime i eat now i feel like a big flat blob of fail.
i could cry now
fuck.
little thing of apple juice- 50 cals
mc shits chicken snack wrap- 90 cals
small bowl of spaghetti.
few smarties.
everytime i eat now i feel like a big flat blob of fail.
i could cry now
fuck.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
.
day 8
i couldnt weigh myself this morning cause dad took the scale out from under my bed & i dont know where he put it. damnnn ..ill find it tomorrow morning & weigh myself then. im feeling skinnier now abit, finally:)
half of a sub
block of an areo baarr
mc-shits burger & wrap.
didnt wanna eat mcdonalds but i had no other choice:( OH and i turned down alott of chocolate today... *clap clap* :)
i couldnt weigh myself this morning cause dad took the scale out from under my bed & i dont know where he put it. damnnn ..ill find it tomorrow morning & weigh myself then. im feeling skinnier now abit, finally:)
half of a sub
block of an areo baarr
mc-shits burger & wrap.
didnt wanna eat mcdonalds but i had no other choice:( OH and i turned down alott of chocolate today... *clap clap* :)
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
day 7 : 129 pounds
small cup of milk
around 7 smarties
two blocks of small kit kat bar
soup.. but i just threw most of that up.
& nothing else for the rest of the day .
ill burn a couple hundred calories later.
feeelin preeeetty depressed seeing that was the first time i ever made myself throw up.
wanting to be 118 pounds or less is really getting to my head !
small cup of milk
around 7 smarties
two blocks of small kit kat bar
soup.. but i just threw most of that up.
& nothing else for the rest of the day .
ill burn a couple hundred calories later.
feeelin preeeetty depressed seeing that was the first time i ever made myself throw up.
wanting to be 118 pounds or less is really getting to my head !
Monday, October 31, 2011
D: happy halloweennn !
i failed..
saturday, i ate alotta mcdonalds, cause i had a hugeee hangover!
& sunday i had to eat dinner and supper with my boyfriends family.
today, being monday, i am starting agian, at this moment i weigh at 130 agian.. :(
So far today, i had a muffin , and a small cup of milk. soon ill be eating chicken hearts and potatoes, only gonna have a little plate of it though.
hopefully ill soon be back to 126:)
halloween treats are SUPER tempting :( saddd.
gonna look at some thinspiration for a bit now to keep me going.
i guess ill name this Day 6 !
<3
saturday, i ate alotta mcdonalds, cause i had a hugeee hangover!
& sunday i had to eat dinner and supper with my boyfriends family.
today, being monday, i am starting agian, at this moment i weigh at 130 agian.. :(
So far today, i had a muffin , and a small cup of milk. soon ill be eating chicken hearts and potatoes, only gonna have a little plate of it though.
hopefully ill soon be back to 126:)
halloween treats are SUPER tempting :( saddd.
gonna look at some thinspiration for a bit now to keep me going.
i guess ill name this Day 6 !
<3
Friday, October 28, 2011
woooo !
day 4 : 128 pounds
small glass of milk
sub (360 cals)
jigs dinner, small plate.
forgot to update ! :(
i thought i was gonna put on a few pounds, but apparently not :)
small glass of milk
sub (360 cals)
jigs dinner, small plate.
forgot to update ! :(
i thought i was gonna put on a few pounds, but apparently not :)
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
temptationnn
day 3: 130 pounds
bit of cereal, just enough to hover over the bottom on the bowl
bit of goulash, small plate
feeling pretty strong, seeing i just turned down my favorite food...chocolate!
tempting.. but im not letting all my progress run down the drain !
im loosing weight so fast, but i have the feeling that its only for the first bit..
so its gonna get harder :( sadddd
bit of cereal, just enough to hover over the bottom on the bowl
bit of goulash, small plate
feeling pretty strong, seeing i just turned down my favorite food...chocolate!
tempting.. but im not letting all my progress run down the drain !
im loosing weight so fast, but i have the feeling that its only for the first bit..
so its gonna get harder :( sadddd
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
:)
day 2: 133 pounds
small glass of milk
sandwich
few fries (not deep fried)
half of a small steak
feeling pretty good :)
agian, thankyou cryotaneko(:
small glass of milk
sandwich
few fries (not deep fried)
half of a small steak
feeling pretty good :)
agian, thankyou cryotaneko(:
Monday, October 24, 2011
ah
day 1: 135 pounds
small glass of milk
half bowl of potatoes
few bites of ham
..
hungryyy, with a headache.
small glass of milk
half bowl of potatoes
few bites of ham
..
hungryyy, with a headache.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
(:
operation starvation starts tomorrow! yay! gonna eat as many cookies as i can tonight, & a tall glass of milk.
wishing myself luck
wishing myself luck
Friday, October 21, 2011
yaay blogspottt
woah, dont know what im at with this .
sooo, this whole blog thing, shall be like my journal, im quiet excited!
i seem to have a few things troubling me in my life, guess ill write about those sometimes. i suck at writing this kinda crap by the way!
ive been meaning to start & finish getting to my goal weight, which is 118 pounds. but i havent got there yet.. sadd. ive failed like 5 times, longest time ive been in starvation mode was 6 days, & i somehow lost 7 pounds. best feeling ever... until i tossed a few cookies in my mouth and once again got into eating normal again. then once again, back to 135 pounds. fml. monday i will start again, hopefully with this blog thing ill keep motivated & ill succeed. well off to bed ! gooodnight:)
sooo, this whole blog thing, shall be like my journal, im quiet excited!
i seem to have a few things troubling me in my life, guess ill write about those sometimes. i suck at writing this kinda crap by the way!
ive been meaning to start & finish getting to my goal weight, which is 118 pounds. but i havent got there yet.. sadd. ive failed like 5 times, longest time ive been in starvation mode was 6 days, & i somehow lost 7 pounds. best feeling ever... until i tossed a few cookies in my mouth and once again got into eating normal again. then once again, back to 135 pounds. fml. monday i will start again, hopefully with this blog thing ill keep motivated & ill succeed. well off to bed ! gooodnight:)
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